Chapter 42

I sat stunned into silence by what Dot announced, well over the bombshell she dropped. blinking my eye's over and over taking it in, in total disbelief, and feeling like a complete ass I asked, "your pregnant?"
"Yeah I am, or should I say we are Jon... doesn't that seem more important than getting wound up over your pop doing the right thing and getting justice for what Doc and Manning did to you and others?, I think its called prioritising..." I loved Dot with all my heart and she had a way with her to make me see things the way they should be seen.
"I'm angry right  now with you too Jon, and I'm pissed so bad.."
perplexed I asked "Why?"
"because I did not want to tell you like that, I wanted to tell you the news so we could enjoy it together, but when you get pissy, I had to do something to get you to focus..."
My mom, who was sat on the chair over the far side, had tears in her eye's, Dot moved over to her, "Hey ma, I am sorry for blurting it out like that," my ma smiled at Dot and just got up and hugged her real close, no words being spoken, but they shared a moment together as mother and daughter. I felt left out, and in many ways I was. I had to break in to their moment.
"Babe, when did you find out?"
Dot turned from my mom and looked at me, her brown eye's moist with tears she had shared with my mom,
"today, I saw Dr Gardia and she confirmed it..."
"why did you not say something before?"
"because I wanted to be sure first,"
I was so happy I could not stop smiling, I was going to be a daddy, Dottie and I were pregnant. "It's nice to see you smile, I had forgotten how gorgeous your smile is."
I took her hand, and raised it to my lips and gently kissed the back of her hand, my lips lingering over her knuckles ever so slightly and blowing warm air and some kisses to each of them too. our eye's met, and I knew no matter what we faced, we would always be together forever, Dot was a strong intelligent woman and she had no fear about losing me to the fans, and that was one of the sexiest things about her, she never needed me, and didn't need me, I guess that was why I loved her and what kept me on the straight and narrow, and now, she had given me the most wonderful gift another human can give another, she was giving me our child, our child that we had made together, the ultimate show of love as man and woman, could life get any better?. Dot was right, my exaggeration and erratic behaviour over my pop was of no importance, now I was given even more to focus on and to work hard at being released from rehab, I had my wife and unborn child waiting and needing me, starting tomorrow, I was gonna push myself harder than ever before.
Raising my eye's to the ceiling, in silent prayer I thanked god for everything....
"So are you with us?"
bringing my eye's back down I focused on Dot and my ma, "Yeah, sorry, I was just thanking god for everything, every now and then it does not hurt to say thank you, does it?"
both nodded in agreement, and Dot added, and for what your pop and Richie has done too. Yeah, they had risked a lot, again for me, jeez I really had been one stubborn stupid piece of ass. I knew tomorrow was gonna be a new day, and a fresh start for all of us, starting with the news to tell Richie and an apology for everything I had put him and my band mates through. When I saw my pop too, I was gonna tell him to remove the animity he had gotten agreed, hell if they wanted me to give evidence I would. right now I could take on the world and win, nothing could stop me the way I was feeling.
The baby news had me fired and I wanted to share the news publicly, I asked Dot, I was ready to schedule a meeting with my publicist and have it announced from the top of the empire state building, but Dot may have other idea's.  trying to sound casual I asked, "So, can we make a public announcement?"
"you want the world to know?"
"Hell yeah, I do... this is just the most amazing day in my life... our lives, don't you wanna share it? "
smiling she replied," look I don't mind our friends and family knowing, but lets leave the rest of the world in the dark until we have our baby, then we can really celebrate eh, time is still young.."
No arguments, she was right, "so we can tell the guys in the band and Richie right?"
she nodded her head.
Terri came back into my room, "Well Jon, you seem in a much better mood, no more frowning, your wife is good medicine for you, that's for sure..."
I looked at Dot, she shook her head, " yeah, I've just been given the most fantastic news ever, and lets just say, starting tomorrow, well I am gonna work harder than ever to get myself outta here, any meals will all be eaten, I need to bulk my strength for what lies ahead for me..." grinning like a cat that got the cream, Terri looked at me puzzled, but smiled and nodded as she answered. "Great, make sure you keep that focus... Mike will be here in ten to get you to the showers... ok?"  this time I nodded.
There was just one more thing I wanted before Terri and the guy's called visiting time to an end with my family, I asked.. "Dot, will you come lay here with me, .... on the bed, I so need to hold you right now?"
she smiled and walked over and climbed on the bed next to me, she slid her arms around my side, and laid her head on my chest, and I just wrapped my arms around her, wanting to protect her forever, she felt so good in my arms, I never wanted to let her go. My ma came over too and sat in the day chair next to us, she laid a protective hand on us both. That's how we stayed until Mike came in  to take me to the showers.