Chapter Fifty Five

As the guests left, I sat and surveyed the damage, the caterers walked round collecting the rubbish, D was still buzzing with the excitement, she was radiant, motherhood definitely suited her. My ma on the other hand had stayed as far away from me as she could, after our small talk she had took off like a rabbit caught in the headlights. I loved my ma, make no mistake, but sometimes I just wish she would back out and stop interfering.
 Lurch came over, "ready?"
"no, I wanna go inside the house" He looked at his watch as he spoke,
"there's only minutes left"
"ok, I know, but throw me some slack already, there's something I wanna do, it will take five minutes at most." It was clear by the look on his face he didn't want too but he took me inside anyway, he pushed roughly and made grunting sounds before he parked me near the wall cabinet, able to reach easily, I opened the draw and took out the photo album D had started, I opened it up and took out the scanned picture of our baby, fuzzy lines and a blurred image stared back at me... how the fuck can you tell what sex it is from this?, I don't think anyone could tell even a MD, I was transfixed at the image looking back at me, and I was filled with pride and over come with so many emotions they caught me by surprise. D walked over, "honey, you ok?"
I shook my head, and wiped my eye's with the back of my hand, "Yeah, I'm good.." I looked up at her smiling, "you have made today perfect for our little Jovi in there," I spoke directly at her growing bump, " you hear little Jovi, your mommy has done you proud today, and we cant wait to meet you...  We both love you so much already... and we promise to be the best mommy and daddy in the whole world for you" D looked down smiling at me, and I looked up at her, we shared a moment of connection as expectant parent together, D opened her mouth to speak but before she could say anything Lurch was back at my side,
"time to go." he has already took off the brakes and had got behind ready to push me when D spoke up, "for the love of god, cut him some space here, he's my husband, the father of our baby, I know you have orders, but you could see we were talking, where are your manners? were you dragged up, now go away, I will tell you when my husband is ready." she stood with her hands on her hips, Lurch just stood with his arms in front and crossed across his hips, and made a stand not moving.
"I have orders." was all he said, this time D snapped. "I said GO, MOVE YOUR MUTHER FUCKING ASS OUT MY WAY."
he looked first at D then at me, and moved himself across the room and stood glaring at us.
"Babe, its ok really,"
"no Jon its not, he's been god damn rude all day, and I've had enough."
she sat next to me on the arm of the couch, her hands resting down her sides, then on her bump.
"Who does he think he is?"
I took her hand in mine, "forget him, he's not important, what's important is right here right now, you me and our growing baby, nothing can take away this memory, lets treasure this, our first baby together?"
she smiled at me, "your right, but he's been like a bad smell hanging around, at one point I thought he would attack my mom.."
we both looked over at the sour sullen face waiting to take me back to rehab. then we laughed, as the laughter died, there was a silence between us, but it was comfortable, I was the one to break it
"well I guess that's me then?"
"Do you have to go back?"
"Yeah, Dr's orders"
"I miss you so much, I need you here with me.." her eye's filled with tears as she held her head down, trying to not let me see.
"hey, where's all this come from?, you knew the score babe?, I'm working real hard to get home faster?"
"I know, I'm just being a jerk, seems like I have no control over my emotions these days..." she tried smiling to hide the ache that was clear in her heart.
"I promise D, I'll be back home before you know it..."
she held my hand, and grimaced a smile to show behind the hurt she was fighting. leaning down she kissed me, and I kissed her, and held the moment together for as long as we could. breaking away, the love we had or each other was stronger than ever before, her eye's showed me and I hoped mine told her.